What I love about my Partner

1. First, what she brings into the world…

Invigorating, softening, clarifying brightness.

A light with integrity and clear intention -

Undeniable presence in the current moment.

When I am near her

My stomach both flutters and settles out

in the same moment,

a diffusion of all my doubts and anxieties

with my tailored inhibitions to being in the outside world soothed;

but even more, she feels indescribably

enlivened and continually expanding in spirit_____

Almost hot to the point of blazing inside my body.

Her head and cheek an orientation in themselves

to the god-head of liberatory bliss

and realistic emotional exultation.

It’s almost as if she manifests an altogether better world by her method

of simply being in existence.

2. Her curves of perfect proportions,

her pinkish-olive complexion,

her plump softness,

her diamond-green eyes

of talisman universal depth;

When I wrap my arms around her

I am home,

a place of both refuge and inexplicable adventure.

3. Her artistry. Dancing and singing,

What she was always meant to do by divine right——

Or possibly mandate.

Her voice consumes the attention of any space by pure depth of manicured raw soul,

A commanding confidence of pristine expression.

Her way of moving is both for survival

and of being in the groove of a better and higher mentality,

in lockstep with the beat

of here and now,

sped up or slowed down

in order to keep it movin’;

to get into the rhythm

to live in every moment,

to discover and peel back the technicalities in the craft

in order to embody them

and transcend them.

And to be in community

to give and receive,

and to be in and dedicated to the tribe.

4. Openness & Sensuality.

Truly being open to being with someone else, and driving to the reality of making it happen.

Vulnerability isn’t always easy to navigate, trust, and accept…

and to continue doing so.

Being in the adult world for more than a decade and a half

and coming across multitudes of people, all wonderful in their own way,

I can only count a handful of times when someone was even aware of being open

to someone else completely,

much less CHOOSING to dive in -

swimming in the currents of love,

such a direct action of navigation.

And to do it while still in love with someone else who chose to walk away,

for what actual reasons I’ll never know,

Intentionally and honestly, I’ll never truly be able to convey my astonishment and admiration…

But the cooling sigh of serene contentment

that comes over me

in this moment of reflection

is to know

That we have several lifetimes to continue revealing ourselves to each other,

To expressing our admiration,

to learning and growing together.

And whatever mistakes,

disagreements,

misunderstandings,

changing needs and desires,

life changes and choices that come our way,

We will continue to be there for each other.

We will continue to be a bastion of spiritual, emotional, and kinetic sensuality, in the wholistic sense of creating the best worlds for each other and our tribe(s).

I always knew from childhood

that I needed to be some part of a vibrant community.

Some of it I had to create in and for and around myself,

and I am very proud of allowing and working on myself to create that.

Meeting her has created,

or maybe revealed,

a conduit for parts of myself to be turned on,

or teased out,

not always allowed or reachable

by whatever forces - internal or

external

-

have been guarding them.

And in the immortalized words of the wise James Baldwin,

“There’s always a reason to be guilty. Guilt is easy. Responsibility is hard, and action is even harder…

For you and for me, to establish this cross-fertilization…

Or rather to redeem this cross-fertilization,

You will have to give up many things

and so will I.

This is true of any real human connection.

People modify each other.

That’s what’s called love.”

5. For the first time, really, in my lifetime

In almost 40 years on this planet

I have no doubts

That she and I

Can make it through ANYTHING

Together

Even when we appear altogether foreign to each other.

We know so much of each others’ true depths,

intentions,

and most impotantly

doing the real work of being in true communion with one another.

6. We are both aware of the best and worst parts of the world around us, and what is at stake;

and that what all this REALLY comes down to is that every human being on this planet and has ever been here are bound to one another.

We are all divine, each and every one of us. And we are responsible to each other.

7. We want to be with each other.

8. We are practical about what all this means.

9. We are different from each other.

This allows things to be revealed in ourselves,

subconscious irritations and grievances not allowed of others

Because we are inside one another.

But we work on repair in these moments,

And know we are not going to walk away.

10. Every time I walk to her apartment,

Every step I take to get closer and closer

My hear grows with excitement

No matter what happened that day

I am home again

And we are together

In the world we have created in each other

Or maybe we have discovered

And I am in love once again

In a way I never would dream of leaving

This realm of continually becoming

A new version of myself.

I just want more of you, baby.

You are mine, and I am yours.

And somehow we are also freed.