What can I do?

Is my mind the same as it used to be?

I feel older,

but I feel as free as I ever have

and still the future terrifies me.

We seem to be in a historic turning point,

of and towards what I don’t think anyone who is being true to themselves

would say they know exactly;

and the multitudes of people we could call our brothers and sisters

by way of being alive at this time the same as we are,

are wondering…

what do we do?

Do we have the same convictions?

Will we actually band together when it is direly needed?

Or will we fracture?

Will we fail?

Will we end up seeing someone we know

jailed

outlawed

or wielding a gun against us…

HOW could we predict that now?

Is this ridiculous?

I don’t know.

I have to think that others that must do what is right will find each other,

and that I will continue to try to do that.

That I will try to be an example to my nieces.

What will I be asked when I am 80 years old?

Will I make it to 80?

If I do,

I want to be able to say

That I did absolutely everything I could

within my capacity.

and I put it on the record

for anyone who’s interested to follow.

What else can I do?